Lets call her "Rain".
In marathi , i have nicknamed her-"Paaus". Thats one of my favourite marathi words:"Paaus".
This monsoon was one of the most unforgettable rainy seasons of my life. I think i have an intuition power. If i am very composed, sometimes i can tell that whether it's going to rain or not. I can predict whats going to happen. Sometimes.
I knew it was her. I had seen her in the college some times but never thought that she will come in my life. She is from another department. Even though i have contact with girls from all over the college, i never got into a situation for 3 years of my life in BDCOE that i could speak to her.
That day a common friend of ours called me and said that one friend of hers wanted to join the Friends Book Club. Something clicked inside me that very moment. That very moment i realized that its gonna rain now.Somehow, i knew it was her.
I walked into her classroom and couldn't take my eyes off her. she was just wonderful.
i said,"preet".
she said "What?".
Then i realized that i have to speak something earthly and descend back from the heaven, if i wanted to start the conversation.
"My name.My name is preet."
She wanted to join FBC. As usual i forgot to bring the forms.So we decided to meet the next day.
Next day when she handed me the form, her hands were shaking. i dont know why but i felt it was a green signal. i imagined she might have to say something. she too had something in her. i talked to her about our common friends. About my junior college. We found out that she was also in the same junior college in which i was. 5 years in a row. in the same institution. Yet our paths never crossed!! i wondered why had life sent her to me now??Now, when everything is gonna end in the next 6 months??
I always send a welcome message to the new club members. i also sent her one. On that evening she replied me "Thanks".
I was stunned. In the past 1 year of the club, i hardly remember anyone who thanked me for making them members.i told this to her. She said" i m one of those few people."
Yes. She is one of those people.
We talked about studies, project etc. I took her as i would have taken any other normal girl ....just talking about academics and all....I told her that i had the seminar on my project after some days.
It was 24th July, my Moms Bday, and my seminar. I was preparing for it and suddenly i got a sms in my inbox.
"Hey! Best of Luck for the seminar."
Vibrations set into my whole body. My brain started feeling as if all the strain was taken away. I started feeling my breath. She was the first one to wish me Best luck.I fell flat for her since that very day.
She has descended into my life as a shower descends and brings cool breeze with it. It makes the environment so vibrant that you start loving your breathing process. You start to breathe as much cool air as possible. You start feeling that you are alive. The next two months were full of beauty for me.The contact grew very slowly.And i started becoming compatible with her...(bcoz i fell compatible with very few girls personally and those girls fell that i m nuts..)...
And i dont know when......i got attached to her...
Started waiting for her sms', sent her beautiful thoughts and poetry...
And then i started feeling....sweet....so sweet....
Whenever i thought about her, i went in to trance. The thoughts which came to me ,when i started expressing myself to her, were coming from some other world.they were not earthly. On days i would just watch rain and think of her. Or i got wet each time it would rain, just because she had told me that she loved rain.I too, liked rains. But i started living in them after she told me that she too had love for them.Each time she talked to me it was like somebody is putting sugar in my head and stirring it slowly. her name was so sweet that i felt cadbury dissolving on my toungue each time i said it.
The next two months, Rain came as she wished. She would then make me completely drenched, each time i went to her.When she wasn't there, there was a cloud around me. i lived in the cloud. the cloud which was the reminder of Rain. Reminder that she will come.
When in the cloud i started feeling at rest. I started feeling that i had got, what i was waiting for.Such a beautiful and subtle that cloud was that u couldnt do anything else but just be in it.
i knew that if i tried to catch it, it will go. It will vanish forever.
What i feared for, happened some days ago.
I tried to catch the cloud and keep it with me. I told her that i had the fear that i might lose her. I did something silly which made the cloud go. And i was left crippled, as if a tree had been uprooted from the earth. I cried. God knows, for what reason.
